What if?

time travel

  

–noun

hypothetical transport through time into the past or the future. 

At some point in our lives, whether were seven wishing we didn't steal the fruit snacks from the little girl across the table, or seventy and wishing you could relive your glory days, we all ourselves...What if?

  If you think about it though, we all love the thought being able to change the past, find out where we went wrong, and where we could be right now. 

  A couple weeks ago my English teacher said something that really stood out to me. She told us to think of the worst thing that ever happened to us. Then she told us to imagine what things would be like if that never happened. 

  That really got me thinking, whoa! I'd spent the last year of my life wishing so many things never happened, that I never felt the things I felt, that I'd never met some of the people I met, but then I thought about what my teacher said. If I'd never gone through those things, I wouldn't be the person I am now. I would have never matured, I wouldn't have the amazing friends that I have now, and I would have never been able to start a better relationship with my parents. Don't get me wrong I fight with my parents constantly but the fact that I can be open with them and tell them things that I know I never would have been able to a year ago.

  Sometimes  though I still get the feeling, because even though all these good things came out on my mistakes, there's also the bad things that came with it too, like how no matter how much I love my friends, I don't think I'll ever be able to fully trust anyone. Or how I struggle with the day by day of trying to force myself in to a constant perfection for my family.

  So I guess the question shouldn't be what if? It should be how can I push forward?